No one is ever prepared for what life throws at us. I never in a million years would have thought I'd be having to go through this. My heart breaks so bad. Times were good, so many memories. I loved him so much. I have days I cant breath, I cry, cant sleep but I do try to make myself eat. I dont know how to live life without him. I'd give anything for him to walk through that door & tell me this is all a dream. My body is screaming for him. I see him everywhere I look. I'd give anything for one more day, only one more day would make me want one more day. I dont know how to move through this. A part of me wants to scream, a part of me wants to stay calm & the only thing I know to do is cry. I just want him to come home. I want to be wrapped up in his arms again. This is a pain that will not go away easily. Im broken, shattered. Don't think I'll ever be whole again. RIP Jason, I will forever love you!'s Timeline